NEW BLOG ADDRESS

OKAY SO JAIMEE HAS FINISHED MY NEW BLOG AND I LOVE IT. COME BY AND SEE US AND LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK

WWW.EVERYTHINGDOESHAPPENFORAREASON.BLOGSPOT.COM


AMY, ISABELLA & GABRIELLE

OKAY quick update then a new blog soon

Alright everyone, I know that I have been a little M.I.A. for those of you who dont know already I lost my son and have been kind of in a funk since then. I didnt want to post about it because I guess I just wasnt ready to deal with it and also even though the baby's father treated me so poorly at the end I still felt that he deserved to know before I went public with it. It took a few weeks for me to get the nerve up to contact him since I was hurt so badly. I called him several times and I think immaturely hung up on him maybe once or twice. I guess the thought of him getting excited at the thought that I lost our child, sorry my child would have just been too much for me to handle. So I guess I took the wuss way out and sent him a letter. I'm not a person who needs closure all the time because maybe I will never know what really happened with him. Why one week he said he "refused to let me go" and then the next I was out like yesterday's garbage...I guess I will never get to know but I could not go through my life with him thinking I had a son. So I did need closure to that. That whole thing crushed me in a way that maybe I will never recover completely from, I lost a man that I thought I would spend the rest of my life with and I lost a friend of 30 years in the process. I got a tattoo on my ankle in memory of my son, its a blue butterfly and I love it.

So heres to a fresh start and a new beginning for me and the girls. I have to remind myself daily that Everything Happens for a Reason. I am going to be having a new blog and Jaimee is going to design it for me so hopefully that will be up soon. I will post it on here when I have the new blog address.

Thanks for all your love and support and for those of you who have known about it for all your emails.

sorry all

Hello all just a quick update computer problems among many other reasons why I haven't updated. Yes still pregnant but very nervous, had lots of bleeding and been do the doctors a few times because of it. Its a boy by the way. I will try to stay in better touch. The girls are doing well. Isabella is potty trained permanently and has been for a couple months, Gaby is getting there. Just feeling overwhelmed and exhausted.

Tagged

I was tagged by Laurie, Bella's momma


i am : a mother, a cancer survivor, loved by family and friends

i think: about how to give my girls the best life possible

i know: that I made the right choice to start over

i want: to live a long, healthy, cancer free life and to find a good man (eventually) to share my life with

i have : 2 beautiful girls

i wish: I didn’t always wear my heart on my sleeve

i hate: prejudice, liars and people who don’t say what they mean and mean what they say

i miss: not having any time to myself

i fear: having my heart broken again

i feel: tired

I hear : the girls talking

i smell: sunblock, taking the girls to the pool soon

i crave: rice pilaf, yes I know weird craving and donuts lately

i search: for answers

i wonder: if I am doing everything I can for my kids

i regret: nothing…regrets are a waste of time

i love: my kids

i ache: for the people and children of Guatemala and for those people in the adoption process being affected by the slow down

i care: about people

i always : try to be the bigger person in every situation, life is too short for all that conflict

i am not: perfect

i believe: in GOD and that everything happens for a reason

i dance: I don’t even remember the last time I did that

i sing: Hannah Montana songs with my kids

i cry: lately; often

i don’t always: go after what I want

i fight: never

i write: to get my thoughts out

i win: every day that I see my girls not in chaos, I know I made the right choice for them

i lose: well the girls lose, because theydon’t see their father very often so they ask for him a million times a day

i never: judge people for the choices they make

i confuse: love, when people aren’t truthful about their feelings, love gets confusing

i listen: to my children talking to each other

i can usually be found: at home

i am scared: that I won’t be able to give my kids the opportunities I want to

i need: more than 2 seconds to myself, to eat a meal without someone sticking their fingers in it, to sleep through the night

i am happy about: the possibilities the future holds for me

i think : there is a plan for all of us

I tag, Shelby (Princess Breahna)
Corey (Luke & Sarah)
Michelle ( Double D's)
Farrah (Madisyn)

pics from the week

Okay so Laurie has informed me that I am a bad blogger and Easter was a month ago. Lots going on and apparently half my brain is missing, oh well. I will try to do better. Isabella has really started mothering Gabrielle it is really cute, she asks me if she can hold her like a baby thats what she is doing here. We are now proud to say that Isabella is finally about 95% potty trained, had a bit of a backslide with the move but she is doing much better, I think the Hannah Montana big girl underwear worked. Gabrielle is talking a ton, too much if you asked me. Its really cute listening to the girls having a conversation.

Happy Easter

any suggestions????

Okay all, I'm sorry I haven't posted, I was on vacation for a few days up north without my children thanks to my parents. I was by far the most wonderful, restful, relaxing trip that I have ever been on. On the last day of my trip I got bit by a spider and it is killing me. It looks like a golf ball and feels like it, not raised like a golf ball but feels like a golf ball is inside my skin. Its not getting any worse but it has been 5 days and it isnt getting any better. I would post a picture of the bite but it would be a little xrated, it is on my butt. I have no idea how that happened, of all the places to get bit.


My dad is a retired physical education teacher and he was playing soccer with the girls, I think he was getting a little frustrated, telling the girls you don't use your hands in soccer




























the girls coloring, fighting over crayons














mean mommy says if you can't share than no one can color




























This is my grandmother, better known as Mimi, please pray for her, she has been in and out of the hospital but as she says she is a tough old bird. She lives with my aunt and uncle and my aunt and my mom take turns taking care of her. I think Isabella may weigh more than her. Mom said it was like taking care of 3 toddlers on the days she had my grandmother, THANK YOU MOM




























Princess Isabella who calls me Queen mommy




























Christmas Day at Disney














Gabrielle the incredible hulk, my mom got them an easel for Christmas, Gaby decided it would be better to color on her face. Thank God for washable markers